"i'll never tell

how i crave to die daily
and one day, i'll leave
a note on the kitchen table
"unbearable years have flooded at last"

thick or thin and no matter about the balance in the bank
you're absolutely right
the most neurotic of them all controlled life
'til the very -- "

i clutch as i remember
and him, him i left to remember in a way he'll want to cherish, and remember

and there, he said sorry i snapped open i said i couldn't cry and i didn't i couldn't speak and it was unreal and it was indescribable he sat down and he said sorry it's gonna be ok i can't control everything he might be gay he might break up or down he might move away
i might miss him and the others and miss my life and all those mornings
days and nights
day and night
i thought about everyone, i thought and i felt then all inside me cracked he sat down and he said sorry i said it's ok and i cried.